Chatting on the brand-new radio programme Couple Goals, the Geordie Shore icon revealed the grief of finding out she isn’t pregnant: “This year has been quite hard. You never prepare yourself for grief. I went through a lot of grief this year and on top of that me and Jordan went through fertility struggles. It’s been really hard. The grief every month of not having what you want, that baby, has been really really tough for us.”
She continued: “I remember taking these pregnancy tests when I was due on my period and it coming back negative and I just couldn’t bare to tell Jordan so I’d just keep it to myself. There’d be times where I’d just sit there and think ‘I just can’t tell him’. We’d sit in the front room, and both say we were fine but we really weren’t. But we’ve got stronger through that and we’re still fighting for it. There is going to be a little baby Brook at some point.”
“I’ve got hope for myself and Jordan and if there is anyone out there who is in a similar position, just talk. You can reach out to me in my DMs. This radio show [Couple Goals] is also going to raise so much awareness for this. We’re all in this together.”
Jordan also opened up about struggling with fertility as a man: “We were sort of naïve when we first embarked on our fertility journey well over 18 months ago that it was easy to have a baby. And it’s not that easy. This has been the hardest part of our relationship. It’s been such a tough few months.”
He continued: “We realised it wasn’t going to be easy when I had my sperm tests done. For me opening up on this as a man has been very very hard to do. Thanks to Dan [Edgar], Diags [James Bennewith] and Roman [Hackett] for being there for me. If you are going through the same things, definitely talk about it because me and Sophie weren’t talking about it. I was being a typical man, going to work, coming back from the salon and we’d find out there was another negative pregnancy test. I wouldn’t take it out on Sophie but I wouldn’t talk to her. So then there’s be a rift between us and it would become hard. We’ve now got to the stage where we communicate so much better.”
“The baby has been at the forefront of our future plans for such a long time now and still is every day. We’re coping with it better and talking to the right people to make it happen.”